362/365 - birthdays are just ducky

13, 870 hours

456 months,

38 years,

3.8 decades,

38% of a century

that is a lot of mathematical data to support my 38th birthday,

and it begs the question...what do I have to show for it?

~a marriage of 18 years (and both of us are still standing).

~2 relatively well adjusted children.

~an unbelievable family and friend network, I went with the quality over quantity theory and it works for me.

~a career of 18 years that has taught me more about who I am and the world I live in than I would have ever imagined.

~a creative outlet that has evolved from sporadic posting to daily pictures and blogging.

~the ability to see my world through the viewfinder and share it with others.

the reader's digest version of what do I have to show for it is...a lot.

Year 37 was fascinating and I will have additional reflection

in my year end review.

For now I will say that Year 38 will be

one of either radical, all encompassing,

soul searching change or it will be the same old thing.

I am sitting on a ledge,

and can go either way.

It would be so easy to continue on the path I am on

as it is a good one.

It has pushed me out of my comfort zone,

has forced me to look deep inside and reflect.

I am making little differences,

being the change I want to see in the world,

I have embraced authenticity,

and worked very hard on being

the best me.

however, there is more,

a harder path,

one with a bigger pay off,

to those around me,

to the world I live in,

to my soul.

It will be a leap of faith

for me, my family, my support network.

It would mean facing my fear of failure,

letting go of my need for control,

and trusting in myself.

It would not be about

stepping outside the box,

more like setting fire to the box

and not being confined to any shape

or defined lines.

Will my word(s) to describe year 38 be status-quo or holy crap, what have I done?

stay tuned and hold on, it may be an interesting 365 days...or maybe not.